Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing well and things have been going smoothly for you.
This post will probably be fairly short but, I wanted to write just letting you guys know where I have been recently, in head and body, and to celebrate the milestone of hitting 200 (AND MORE) likes on the Bipolar Weirdo Facebook page! Within the last week or so, my blog posts have been getting more views and I have been getting more followers! I am just so excited I can’t contain myself. I want to thank you all for following me and reading my posts, even though I have periods when I am absent and cannot find the energy to post. This love and support from you makes me feel like the happiest blogger. I hope I can continue to improve and give you something interesting and knowledgeable to read.
I haven’t had the best few months. It started with my aunt passing away on May 29, 2021. I didn’t know how to really deal with that. I didn’t cry, I felt like that was weird. But it put me in a weird mixed episode. I haven’t wanted to do much of anything since then. My mother and I went to Kentucky to be with family and help them sort and put away my aunt’s things she left. I was luckily able to take a few of her things to have for myself from her. My grandpa found her old camera and once I got it charged and looked through it, I saw all of the pictures she had taken. That’s when I cried for some reason lol. Time with family was very needed. I am very close to my mother’s side of the family and unfortunately I don’t get to see them often.
Right before I left for Kentucky, I was taken advantage of by someone who I thought was a friend. I won’t go into anymore detail, though. It took me awhile to tell anyone because I blamed myself for what happened. I was alone with my mind telling me I could have done more or I should have just got up to leave. I begun to feel suicidal and contemplated self harm again. It definitely did not help the depression I was feeling but, I have absolutely the most supportive and best friends and husband anyone could ask for. I actually spoke to my psychiatrist and she got me set up with another (mine left to go elsewhere I guess) therapist. So, I have gotten some professional help. There are people who have suffered from this also and have the same feeling and thoughts. I have put the National Suicide phone number below in case anyone needs it. ❤
Still doing the photography thing and LOVING it. I just did a friend’s wedding and I don’t think I did too awful. She looked gorgeous so they were easy pictures. I feel like I’m getting better, I use my camera almost daily!
I wish I had better news to share. I do want to, again, thank you all for sticking with me. Like I have said before, I love writing and talking with you. If you enjoy my posts, please follow me on here and you will get an email every time I post. Love you all so much!
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Bouncing back after loss is always hard. I’m sorry to hear about your friend. You always have more friends *hint* hint*
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